I know I stopped after a few days of posting (surprise!) but we all knew that would happen. I took a break from posting because this had turned into a place for me to vent my negative energy. Being negative about this experience is not helping. In fact, it was hurting.
I made some positive changes: Got a new machine, got access to my data (though I need an SD card reader!). I adjusted my mask appropriately, and managed to start getting a teensy tiny bit of sleep.
I'm still in the denial stage. Not necessary the same part of denial. Before I just thought "This isn't permanent". I just assumed I'd have a surgery, get a nice vacation from work and be all cured. Then I'd sit back and laugh at all the suckers with their hose noses.
This portion of denial sounds more like "This makes me special, I'm going to do this!" In reality it does make me special. This is MY illness that I am taking charge over. It isn't the kind of special thta we WANT to have -- no. But I get to learn new things. Can't beat that.
Yesterday I purchased a hose cover, a hose hanger, and some aromatherapy for my CPAP. (I now use the resmed S9 autoset and LOVE IT). I'll review what I bought at a later time...when I get it.
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